Thoughts and ramblings

Sun, 16 Mar 2025 02:36:36 GMT

It's kind of strange - recently I find myself falling back into a number of comforting old hobbies, like video games and journaling here. Heck, I'm even commenting on Reddit posts more, and in recent years I've mostly just lurked there. They're all things I haven't done much in a long time, and it... feels good, I guess is the best way to put it. Comfortingly familiar.

I'm not entirely sure why that might be. Is it because I'm finally healing from the mess of nonsense that happened between 2020 and the end of 2022, or something else? Whatever the reason, I'm not complaining.

In other news, this week was exhausting, even though I spent it mostly at home. I think something might be up with my ADHD meds - my resting heart rate's been higher than usual the past week, and there have been some times where it felt like my heart was pounding while I was sitting at my desk, so I'm taking a medication vacation to see if it helps calm things down. I'm on spring break, anyway, and it's not like I need to focus intensely on anything, so this is a good time to do it. I'll see how I'm doing heart rate-wise after a few days off meds - the stress of worrying about my health probably didn't help things much either.

I need to clean up my spaces downstairs. The TV room is cluttered, my bedroom has a couple piles of stuff I need to deal with, and my office is a hot mess outside of the areas that end up on camera when I'm in work meetings. I know that getting things cleaned up will help my mood and help me feel better mentally. (Been struggling with burnout, and the messy spaces are probably a reflection of that...)

Went to Lucas' birthday party today. It was at Dave & Buster's - it's been ages since I've been there. I vaguely remember going with my ex-husband once after we moved to Bloomington; I went a lot more often with Franco during the time we dated back in college. Every time we went down to visit his parents on break, we'd make a point of going to Dave & Buster's to get dinner and play games. It's a bit different there now - there are a lot more kid-friendly games at the D&B's that just opened in Bloomington than I remember seeing at the one near Franco's mom's house, and there were about as many kids as adults there today. It's also loud, so much louder than I remember - but maybe I'm more sensitive to noises now than I used to be. (I'm glad I brought earplugs. They really helped.) They also got rid of physical tickets, which is kinda sad - it makes sense, but dang, it was so satisfying to see a bunch of tickets come out of the coin pusher games I loved playing when I'd manage to knock a bunch of coins off the ledge.

I did have fun, though - I found a Star Trek coin pusher game (which was exciting, I didn't expect to find *anything* Star Trek in there), dumped a bunch of credits into it, and managed to get four 100-ticket Star Trek trading cards out of it. The server taking care of our party said that the prize redemption counter would probably take the cards when I redeemed them for tickets, and honestly, the cards are worth more than their ticket value to me, so I just kept them. I was super excited to get the Uhura one, and J helped me out with Spock and got him right to the edge so I could just nudge him off along with a pile of coins.

Lucas and I also went to one of the local game stores after his party wrapped up, since one of his friends got him a gift card for the one attached to the mall - I picked up a cute cat puzzle while I was there.

Aaaaand then when I got home I promptly turned into a couch potato and played Stardew Valley while listening to Star Trek for a few hours, often with a cat on my lap. It helped recharge my batteries, which was much needed after this week and today in particular.

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