https://dreamingpixels.dreamwidth.org/ Beth's Journal - Dreamwidth Studios Sat, 29 Aug 2009 00:18:26 GMT LiveJournal / Dreamwidth Studios dreamingpixels personal https://v2.dreamwidth.org/17737435/97998 https://dreamingpixels.dreamwidth.org/ 100 100 https://dreamingpixels.dreamwidth.org/541448.html Sat, 29 Aug 2009 00:18:26 GMT https://dreamingpixels.dreamwidth.org/541448.html Justin sent me a new album to listen to- Supernature by Cerrone. It's one of those albums that I just want to curl up in the dark and listen to while I drift off to it. It's a disco album ("the best disco album ever", Justin says), and I have to admit, I'm enjoying it. I want to light some incense, dim the lights, and drift off, haha.<br /><br />Student teaching in three days. I'm not sure whether to be excited or utterly terrified. I'll probably spend the next three days slacking off while I can- I work at the computer lab on Sunday night with my friend Kayli, so I might sit around and watch Sailor Moon for five hours, if I can swing it, and work on making scarves.<br /><br />I think I might just go curl up in bed and zone out for a bit. This album almost makes me wish I'd downloaded it earlier so I could listen to it while I was all woobily on Benadryl. That would have been interesting.<br /><br /><img src="https://www.dreamwidth.org/tools/commentcount?user=dreamingpixels&ditemid=541448" width="30" height="12" alt="comment count unavailable" style="vertical-align: middle;"/> comments https://dreamingpixels.dreamwidth.org/541448.html justin student teaching music work Cerrone- Give Me Love content public 2 https://dreamingpixels.dreamwidth.org/509058.html Sat, 02 May 2009 07:57:18 GMT https://dreamingpixels.dreamwidth.org/509058.html i don't know why this is affecting me so much. i just had a dream about my best friend justin (formerly ex boyfriend, but since we've known each other so long the ex part got dropped). i dreamed someone made a movie out of us, out of how depressed we were back when we were dating. and i'm watching this movie, watching us cuddle, and dream me is "oh god these characters are spot on! that guy really acts and sounds like justin! that girl looks like me! and that looks exactly like justin's house!" while the me in the backrground is realizing i never got over him. even though i treated him like shit. anyway, the dream goes on, and turns out i'm at my mom's, and i call justin to come see this movie, and he apparently pulls up the same time my dad walks up the driveway, and that's just before i woke up, when the dream started to lose it- apparently a dog (not mom's, one of the ones i petsit for) had gotten out the gate and dad wouldn't come in until kaya was in. anyway, i think i saw justin for a split second before i woke up.<br /><br />why am i crying right now? how the hell did this affect me so much?<br /><br />i think he's in NY, i know he said he was coming over mid april and leaving this weekend for iowa for the last time. i hope he comes to see me like he usually does when he leaves. i miss him. i don't know why i miss what we had- i treated him like shit, and i still feel bad for it, almost six years later. i wish i'd kept my head on straight, and treated him right, yanno? maybe that's why i'm crying.<br /><br />i dunno. i just hope i get to see him. i hope he doesn't mind that i texted him at 3:30 am.<br /><br />i'm gonna go back to sleep and replay that dream in my head until i fall asleep again, which may not happen, i fell asleep at 9 last night. ugh.<br /><br /><img src="https://www.dreamwidth.org/tools/commentcount?user=dreamingpixels&ditemid=509058" width="30" height="12" alt="comment count unavailable" style="vertical-align: middle;"/> comments https://dreamingpixels.dreamwidth.org/509058.html why dreams justin sad public 1