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[dreamingpixels]

Why do I feel guilty for just wanting some time to myself? I've been constantly on the go, all damn semester long, and I just want some down time. It's the first weekend I've had since August where I haven't had some sort of commitment to worry about. Is it so wrong that I just want to sit in front of my computer, surf the internet, and listen to music like I haven't really been able to do all semester?

I mean, yeah, I did get some chances to do that, but they were in the ICT office, surrounded by computer bits, in an uncomfortable desk chair, and with people constantly coming in and out and in and out of my office. But aside from that, and the hour or so I was able to snatch each morning and evening after waking up/before going to bed, I haven't had time to do my sort of relaxing in a very long time.

Why do I feel guilty about this?

We just sat and watched TV together for two hours, and ate dinner, and it was nice, but now that I want to use the computer again, I feel guilty because he's on his side of the room, sad because we're not next to each other, paying attention to each other, and so on.

I want to hide, and just come out tomorrow when I feel better again.

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[ex_fathomless325]

You're an introvert and you need your down time. There is nothing wrong with that AT ALL. He should take care of his introvert instead of making her feel guilty. Down Time and Alone Time are not just things we like, as introverts, but according to all sorts of studies on the topic, they are crucial to our survival and sanity. If we don't have time recharge our batteries we burn out, and no one wants that. *hug* I totally know how you feel. >_<

~Celes

[dreamingpixels]

*hug* And I haven't had time to recharge my batteries properly in MONTHS. I'll be amazed if I'm feeling social by tomorrow. (And to think I wanted to invite a friend over today - it's a good thing she ended up deciding not to come over, I needed the night to myself.) At least now I'm in bed with the laptop and some music - just what I needed.

The space between.

[ktalk]

I quite often need time on my own.

I'm never lonely, I just want the space. I'd find it very difficult to be with people all the time.

So go and get that space before you drive yourself crazy.

[syntaxofthings]

Yes, there's really no reason to feel bad for being yourself. Though you don't want to be like me and finally get a break and then get a cold. Aggggh. You'll hang out again when you've recharged!