what to think how to dream if i don't sleep with you

[dreamingpixels]

Wow, I have been extraordinarily quiet this month. I apologize for that. I read everyone's posts, and comment when I have something to say, but mostly I've just been lurking in the background. I'm good at that, I guess.

I've got a doctor's appointment today. I hope I find out the results of my blood tests, and that the results aren't scary. Tomorrow is counseling, and I hope I don't end up sounding like a gibbering idiot in there. Is it sad that I have to take notes in order to actually talk about what needs to be talked about, instead of staring out the window and stuttering?

Next week at this time, I will be noveling. OMG IT'S ALMOST NANO TIME. I have been so hyper over NaNoWriMo this year that it's crazy. I even made a research poster on NaNo. It's beautiful. I'll have to post a PDF of the completed version up at some point.

I don't want to go to work today. I don't feel like I've had enough weekend yet. I ended up spending most of the weekend cooped up inside, since the weather was crap and Bryan wasn't feeling well. (He spent most of yesterday in bed.) I'll be happy to get out of the house, but sometimes I actually want to do something other than work and class, yanno? Maybe next weekend I'll just go to the library and work on noveling notes or something.

Comments

[moonbathe_skin]

I need notes in counselling too, if it's what you need, then why not?!

What is your NaNo about this year? Mine's a very silly fantasy comedy.

Lurker's paradise.

[ktalk]

I do exactly the same as you: lurk in the background until I have something to say.

But as soon as I do have something, the floodgates seem to open and I make an extremely long entry about it.

[syntaxofthings]

It sounds like you're not really comfortable with counseling/the counselor, if it makes you stutter. :( It's good that you do what you need to do to make it productive though.

[dreamingpixels]

I've never really been comfortable with Josh - I only started seeing him because my old counselor sent me to him when she retired. At first, he kinda reminded me of Sweets, the psychologist from Bones - he's awkward, seems to try too hard... but then I realized I'd actually rather see Sweets than Josh. Josh almost feels... fake to me. I don't even think he actually read my file when Sue passed me off to him. I dunno. I just get really frustrated in counseling, and half the time I leave and want to cry.

[syntaxofthings]

That sounds so frustrating, and you really shouldn't have to deal with that. Is there any way you can see someone else? Counseling isn't very helpful when the counselor makes you uncomfortable. :(