Beth's Journal

Well, I survived a second week of classes and work. I'm amazed!

I'm going to work on getting brave enough to wear Loli to work or class. I used to wear it nearly every day in the spring - granted, I didn't wear it to babysitting, and I would get some strange looks in class, but the professors didn't bat an eye. It's half tempting to set up my portable closet in my office in Dunn and hang all my Loli clothes in there, and just change before class.

Speaking of Loli! I bought some theraputic ruffles today. I bought this skirt, this blouse, and this jumperskirt. Bryan will probably give me 'the look' and say "Well, it's your money, dear." I haven't bought anything new since springtime, so I think it's time. I'm hoping to wear the red skirt to the office - not sure if it'll fly, but it looks a lot tamer than my Alice in Wonderland skirt and my puppy skirt. (It should fit better than they do, too.)

Anyway, meme time! I'm going to catch up today and do two. :D

Day 06 - Your Day

I'll tell you about my day yesterday, since my day today is only three hours old. :P

Yesterday, I woke up at 3 am, when Bryan's alarm went off to remind him that he's gotta work the farmers market at 7 in a town two hours away. I rolled over and slept until 6 am, then crawled out of bed, put my bathrobe on, and internetted for two hours. (I also got dressed somewhere in there.) Then, around 8, my friend Michelle came and picked me up for work, and we went to work. Beth Ann was using Michelle's computer when we got there, so we wandered off to get coffee, and then came back and worked all day. It was insane yesterday - I didn't realize we had two events on campus today, so I was doing a lot of extra stuff in addition to my usual answering the phones and charging credit cards. It was busy, but fun. (We've got a triathlon and a piano competition happening on campus right now.) At 3, I finished up at CLEAR and puttered around for 15 minutes before giving up and going to the computer lab to wait for my shift to start. My co-worker, Umer, had the same idea. (I used to be a little afraid and very annoyed with Umer, but now that he's opened up and talks to me, I actually don't mind him too much.) I worked from 4-6 at the computer lab, and Umer talked my ear off the whole time, alternating between telling me about his family and wishing he had money for one of the new iPod Touches. Then, at 6, I went home, dealt with a grumpy Bryan, talked to Michelle online for a little bit, gave up on the internet, and crawled into bed with my iPod and Dexter at 8. I watched the gleefully gruesome misadventures of Dexter for a few hours before I passed out.

And that was my day!

Day 07 - Your Best Friend

I don't know if I have a best friend anymore. I used to. Her name was Rin, and we were very attached to each other. We used to spend lots of time talking to each other online, and sometimes we'd talk on the phone. I think the reason why we started drifting away initially was work and stuff, but when I had some issues with Bryan last summer, she told me I should dump him. I ended up doing exactly the opposite, and she is still of the opinion that he's not good for me, so she stopped talking to me before he and I got married. I'm still bitter about that, honestly. I mean, none of my friends thought Franco was good for me, but they still stuck around, even when I was being really dumb and sticking with him.

I guess the closest I have to a best friend right now is Michelle. We work together, and we're a lot alike - both socially awkward, both into nerdy things, and we both ramble on about random stuff. Michelle would fit in perfectly in my family, eheh. I'm pretty comfortable around her, and she always listens to me, just like I always listen to her. I hope I don't scare her off.


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I am feeling rather antisocial tonight. I just want to crawl under all my blankets and go to sleep. It's very tempting to do that, actually - there's really nothing for me to do here at the office, and it'd be very nice to change into pajamas and curl up under the blankets with a book.

I am so very caffeine deprived right now. I almost fell asleep a little while ago, honestly.

Maybe I should go home.

Day 04 – What you ate today

Hahahahah. Today was one of the least healthy food days I've had in a while. I skipped breakfast, then had a piece of cake for a midmorning snack with my co-worker Michelle. The cake made us both wibbly with the insane amount of sugar in it. Lunch was delayed until 3:30, when I finally got to the ICT office and could microwave stuff - I had Easy Mac and some cheese crackers. For dinner? Poutine fries. (For those who don't know, it's french fries with cheese and gravy on them. SO GOOD.) I needed the comfort food, it's one of those days where I've been overstimulated and just need to hide.

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Sorry for the short entry today, guys. I'm just beat.

I'm stealing this idea from wyldbutterflies, since it sounds like an excellent way to help all my new friends get to know me. Also, I like memes.

30 Day About Me Meme

Day 01: Introduce Yourself

Oh lordy, I am never good at introducing myself. I always start with "My name is Beth", and then start rambling about something nonsensical, like nerdy things or stupid random things that happened to me. Only once has that actually gotten me a friend.

So, I'll approach this in a different way!

My name is Beth. I'm 28 years old. I'm recently married, to a wonderful man named Bryan. He puts up with my craziness. I was diagnosed with major depressive disorder when I was 16, and anxiety when I was 18. I also have other health problems, but they don't impact me nearly as much as the depression crap. I name my electronics - my desktop is Kitra 2 (Kitra 1 was an HP Pavillion that died a spectacular death a few years ago), my laptop is called Silver, my old laptop is named Snowball, my iPod is named Touchie, and my eBook reader is simply named Book. I get funny looks when I refer to my electronics by name. I am territorial, I sleep with a security blanket, I dress in Gothic Lolita sometimes, and I am addicted to coffee.

I like anime and manga and video games, but I'm nowhere near as rabidly fangirly as I used to be. I still have one hell of a Sailor Moon collection, though, and I'm proud of still being a fan 13 years after I discovered the show. I like to read fantasy novels, and I absolutely love Anne Bishop's works. She is the only author I'm a hardcore fan for - I own every novel she's written. I absolutely love the Ace Attorney series of games for the Nintendo DS - I plan on owning every single game in the series someday. (I am one game short of my goal - apparently it's hard to find Apollo Justice anywhere.) I used to be absolutely obsessed with Princess Peach, and have dressed as her for Halloween twice.

I go to graduate school and I work. I am in the MSEd: Educational Technology Specialist program, and I work three jobs - as a graduate assistant at the Center for Lifelong Education and Recreation, a computer lab supervisor at the Levitt Center, and as an unpaid graduate assistant at the Information and Communication Technology office (or whatever the hell we're calling ourselves, now that we've merged with Computer Science - I don't care, so long as they don't take my office away). I've found that keeping myself very busy keeps me from wallowing in depression. You should have seen me last fall, when my only obligation was to show up to Levitt two nights a week. I was a mess. All I did was drink coffee, lay on the couch, and work on my NaNoWriMo novel.

I'm trying to get more active and lose some weight - I tend to eat junk food when I'm stressed, and I've recently banned myself from eating anything that comes from a vending machine. Also, working out keeps the depression away, which is nice. I am also trying to write in my journal daily - it helps keep me sane. Welcome to my life. I hope I haven't scared anyone off yet.

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