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[dreamingpixels]

I'm wondering if it's even worth it to continue having an online presence.

I mean, nobody instant messages me. Nobody even notices if I'm online or not. Only a handful of people even comment on my journal. I'm wondering if I should just pack up the computer for the summer and spend my time doing more worthwile things. I mean, honestly, what do I even do online anymore? Check Facebook and play Frontierville? Run around on Second Life and be useless? I mean, I used to have a life on here. I used to have a reason to be on the computer. I had friends to talk to. Games to play. Stuff to do. But now, it seems like I'm standing in an abandoned building, the same person I was, and everyone else has left. Some friends just drifted away, which I can understand. Others, I take it, pulled away on their own for reasons I just don't understand, and blame myself for. (You know who you are, and you know it hurts that you're gone.)

Why am I even here anymore?


(Good lord, it sounds like I'm about to commit internet suicide. Maybe I am. I mean, honestly, in real life I feel fine. I have friends, I have stuff to do - it's just online, it feels like I'm throwing words into a black hole.)

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[syntaxofthings]

Part of me wonders the same. Not really because I don't have friends online but more because I find myself wasting time online when there's so much else in the world to do. I was thinking about doing a "summer vacation" from the computer, but I have committed more to turning it off more often than to turning it off for good. Otherwise I wouldn't have anime streams and stuff like that...

Anyway, I'd miss reading your posts but you should do what you need to do. =)

[moonbathe_skin]

i agree. Since I have been on Dreamwidth it has been hard for me too.

I don't understand why so many of my LJ friends prefer Facebook to LJ.

I like the image of Dreamwidth but people seem to interact a lot less.

[ex_fathomless325]

I've felt the same way in the past. Hell, even now. The internet has changed. I'm not sure I changed with it, much.

~C

[phoebesmum]

I feel much the same way. The only reason I don't leave LJ/DW is partly that I do occasionally still write fanfic and I've nowhere else to post it, and partly that some people tried to bully me out of fandom a while back and damned if I'm going to let them!

I'm sorry you feel this way, and hope that you do stick around.

[mu]

I read your journal, but I am so horrible at commenting! I really need to be better about that. I'm so sorry. :(

I know how you feel, though. sometimes it seems like it would just be easier to close up shop and take it all offline.

Read and understood.

[ktalk]

Your words most certainly don't go un-noticed.

I only reply when I have something of value to add to a post, but I read them all.

[amethystfirefly]

I feel the same way, sometimes. I think that the internet evolved and I haven't.

It's kind of sad, really. :/

-hugs- I'd definitely miss you if you didn't post. I just don't know what to say a lot of times.

[rin]

I walk away from the computer a lot, and it's a strangely liberating feeling.

Posting is something you should still do, though, as a tool of catharsis.

[xaea]

i go through a similar thing every so often. in fact, right now, i'm in the process of RE-building my circle at dreamwidth because it kind of withered away. :P i would encourage you to stick around, though. i'm a bit of an ocean when it comes to online presence (tide in, tide out kind of thing) -- maybe you are too?

[crystalchord]

I know this is late, but I understand how it feels too. And I try to IM you, but I end up getting stuck doing something else for my parents (am I a bad friend??)

I feel the same way; I'm trying to start up a blog that no one really reads, and you, and a couple of my real-life friends are the only people who talk to me online.

So, *hug* I know how it feels, and you aren't alone. :) I adore you, Beth!