So many new friends!

[dreamingpixels]

I've made a lot of new friends in the past 24 hours. Which is pretty awesome, I think. I have no problem with new friends! It gives me even more motivation to post more often.

I'm trying to think of the best way to introduce myself to the new people. I suppose directing everyone to the about me tag might work, even though there's some ridiculous old stuff under that tag too. But it's still who I was and who I am, so yeah. If anyone's uncomfortable with it, they can feel free to leave.

But anyway, yeah. Welcome to the insanity. Make yourself at home.



So, I got married almost a month ago, and it's still sinking in. It doesn't feel like anything's changed between me and my husband (Bryan, he's got his own tag, if you're curious to read about him), but that could be a good thing. I don't know. We're just living our lives like we always have together. I ended up switching graduate programs, which is good for me - no huge amounts of depression or panic attacks yet from forcing myself to do something I'm unsure of every day. (I went from Elementary Education, which I was good at in theory but not so much in practice, to Educational Technology, which I rock at.) I'm working three jobs, and I only get paid for two of them. I think about quitting the two I get paid for (office assistant and computer lab monitor) and just working the job I don't get paid for, but that'd be a bad idea, since I need money to, y'know, live. And pay for internet.

I feel like I'm still learning about what it is to be me. I'm socially anxious and awkward (you should see me in person, I'm a mess, haha), I'm territorial (and didn't really realize it until recently), I drink too much coffee, I listen to a crazy assortment of music, and I just generally do what I like and dress how I want (when I'm not at work, anyway), and say 'screw it' to everyone's opinions. Sure, I still deal with the 'last kid picked for kickball' syndrome, even in friggin' grad school, but what do I care? After this year, 75% of these people will be completely gone from my life. And that works for me.

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[fairytalewishes]

I'm socially anxious and awkward

I am,too. It's due to my autism for me, but I'm learning how things work. It took me about 18 years of my life to learn how to do eye contact! XD

Anyway, thanks for asking to be on my flist. ^_^ Can't wait to get to know more about you!

[dreamingpixels]

I still have problems with eye contact, actually, and I'm 28. I've wondered if I'm autistic and it was just never diagnosed (my mom tends to shy away from mental problems - my depression was never truly dealt with until I moved out of the house, for example, and I do know that autism runs in the family), but whatever my issues are, I just deal with them as I can.

^_^ I can't wait to get to know more about you, too. Making new friends is exciting!

[fairytalewishes]

If you think you might be autistic, you should get it checked. :) I don't know how they do the tests, since I was around the age of 4 when my mom took me somewhere and they figured it out. :P I'm classic autism by the way. I can talk and such, but I do the classic symptoms. O_o ^_^

[dreamingpixels]

I think I'm leaning towards Aspbergers, myself - I did some research on it and it just describes me to a tee. It'd make sense as to why I am how I am, if I was diagnosed with it.

[fairytalewishes]

Yeah, if you have Asperger's that wouldn't be as bad as classic Autism. ;D I've read all about autism over the years and there's some interesting stuff out there, non of which I can remember at the moment. XD

[christinathena]

I didn't really make much eye contact before mid- to late 20s myself. I think I made some eye contact, but sparingly. My boyfriend never makes eye contact, except with me, and even then only brief eye moments.

[fairytalewishes]

Then he must put a lot of trust into you for even those brief eye contact moments. :)

[christinathena]

Yep. :-) Even before we realized we loved each other, when we were just online friends, we were very open with each other. He's told me things he's never told anyone else, deeply personal information.

Our long-delayed relationship is totally an asperger's thing. Neither of us realized the other felt the same for a couple of years. Even though others picked up on it. First time he visited me - as a friend - he came up with a friend of his who, when he told her about me, asked "Is she your girlfriend? Is that why we're meeting her?", and he was like "No, she's just a friend!" *hammers the point for several minutes*, and later, after we started dating, that friend said she wasn't surprised, as we'd had a lot of chemistry ... chemistry that neither of us picked up on! :-P