Beth's Journal

Ugh. Life has been... a thing the past couple weeks.

I started dealing with some shortness of breath and feeling like my heart was pounding while just sitting at my desk - and it looks like the culprit may be my ADHD meds. I reached out to my doctor's office about it, and got the ever so helpful response of "stop all ADD meds until next appointment" - so I'm off my meds until next month. Time to drag out all those old coping mechanisms I used to use before I got diagnosed and on medication, wheeeee.

On top of that, poor Hannah has an ear infection and a claw bed infection in both her dewclaws, and I had the joy of learning how to give a cat pills and eardrops for the first time in my life! (And the first time in Hannah's life, too, since she's been pretty damn healthy up until now.) She's also got elevated liver levels, and her white blood cell count is high (probably due to her infections), and I'm a stupid anxious mess over my old baby cat. She hates it every time I put ear drops in, and won't let me go near her for like a half hour afterwards, which makes me feel bad. She hasn't gone poop in two days, either, and is dealing with a little nausea from the antibiotics, so I have to go pick up more medications for her after I get done with work today.

I need a break from life. Can I do spring break over again, please?

I had a busy day today. Or, well, as busy as a Saturday can get in isolation mode, anyway. J and I did a lot of housework and yardwork today while Kasi ran some last-minute errands in town - I feel rather productive, even though I was kinda wiped out and a little cranky the entire day. I even got to use a leaf blower for the first time! It takes some finesse, wrangling leaves with a leaf blower, but it's also kind of fun.

We also ended up packing up the contents of the tent we've had up by the fire pit all summer, so we can take the tent itself down tomorrow or Monday. I'm a little bummed that it's time to pack it away for the winter - it'd been so long since I had a tent to hang out in during the warmer weather, and the woods behind the house are so peaceful and quiet during the summer. Today, though, the trees are mostly bare, and it's been too cold recently to spend too much time outside, so it's time to pack things up out there. (I'm eagerly looking forward to next spring, so I can set everything back up again.)

NaNoWriMo starts in about a half hour in my time zone - however, I'm kinda tired and not sure I can convince myself to stay up late and try to write for a little bit once the clock hits midnight. Besides, there's always tomorrow morning - I can make myself some coffee, flop down in my favorite chair, and write for a bit.

Tonight's the first night in a long time (and the first night since we've had Mo) that we're letting the kittens into the bedroom at night, and I'm hoping they don't wake us up with late-night kitten shenanigans. We started keeping the door closed when Anya was still super little and was trying to nurse on the blankets in the big bed at 3 am - so far tonight, though, she's just been lounging around and occasionally wandering over to watch me type. (which she's doing right now!) Here's hoping tonight is relatively quiet, kitten-wise.