Beth's Journal

Back from my NaNo induced non-posting vacation, that is. I've been reading everyone's posts, and I hope everyone hasn't missed me too much. I really appreciate my DW friends, each and every one of you, and I worry about you and everything. (Just ask Bryan sometime, I tell him about who's lost a cat or how I'm worried about someone, all people from DW)

Anyway, the semester is coming to a close - thank goodness. I guess I'm superwoman - I managed to survive working 40 hour weeks and taking 9 credit hours, all at the same time. Also, miracle of miracles, I didn't get sick this semester - I had bronchitis this summer, and now I think I've got a sore throat, but other than that, I've been relatively healthy. It'll be nice to have some spare time to invite my two or three friends over, too. (And the house is clean for once, so I won't be embarrassed about bringing people in!)

I think Franco might stop by today while he's in town. (For those of you who don't know/forgot, Franco is my ex - check the tag "stupidhead" to learn more.) While I sort of want to see him, I'm not entirely sure if it's a good idea. Part of the reason I want to see him is a little vindictive - I want to say "Oh look at me, I'm happy and married and getting my masters degree and have a mostly decent apartment and NONE OF IT INVOLVES YOU HAHA". The other part of me honestly want to see him and see he's doing okay - I mean, I did date him for nearly three years. Sure, he was a douchebag, but I cared about him. Ah well. We'll see what happens this afternoon.

I've noticed my musical tastes are changing. While I still love to listen to classic rock and techno and stuff, I've lately been listening to a lot of... well, it doesn't really come from one genre - it's all stuff from my Caravan Palace radio station on Pandora. (If anyone wants to listen to it, and has Pandora, I'll see if there's a way I can send the station over to you so you can give it a listen.) It's all bass-y, and has lots of remixing and stuff, and most of it's pretty downtempo and fun to listen to. I love it. I don't know why.

I stopped going to counseling, because honestly, I think writing here has a much more theraputic effect than going to see Josh - whether it's here or in my novel. He makes me twitchy. And stuttery. And overall, he just feels fake. When I first saw Dr. Sweets on Bones, I said "OH MY GOD IT'S JOSH." But no, Sweets isn't fake, he's just awkward. And downright adorable in his awkwardness. I'd rather go see Dr. Sweets than Josh!

Other than cleaning, and Franco coming, not much else has happened lately. I'm a boring Bethie, I know.

edit: Franco messaged me at 1 saying he was getting to Potsdam around 4:30, and that he was sorry. Sorry about what? Letting me down again, the most recent in a very, very long string of letdowns? I can't say I'm not surprised by this. Ah well. I am secure in the knowledge that I'm better off and happier than he is. :)

Also, I think I'm getting sick. This is going to make for a miserable weekend.

editedit Ran into Franco as I was leaving for the party I was headed to. I knew that was going to happen. Whatever, it was a painless, five minute visit. XD

-Made a counseling appointment for Tuesday. Hopefully things can get sorted out then.

-Took Friday and Saturday off from work and went with Bryan to work the Wine and Brew Fest at Hunter Mountain, in the Catskills. Had lots of fun, sold a lot of wine, and was generally very busy. I'm amazed I wasn't so overwhelmed with the amount of people there! (I did snap at the end of the day, when I'd spent 5 hours on my feet with no food.) We stayed in an... interesting hotel, one of the ritziest I've ever been in, and I am very glad to be home.

-Visited my in-laws and my sister.

-Bought an insane amount of wine. My favorite wine was on sale this week, Adirondack Winery's Orchard Blossom (a green apple gewurstraminer), so I bought seven bottles. Hope it'll last me until next May.

-Procured a stuffed Pomeranian. It's probably the closest I'll get to owning a Pomeranian for a few years. I've named her Kaya Flufferpants.

I should go to bed - I have to work in the morning, and I know I won't want to get up in the morning.